I’ll always love you. But don’t worry, I’ll keep pretending everything is okay and that I don’t mind us being friends...

holidays....are ok (:

i have read so many posts about how holidays suck. im just glad mine are...fine at the moment, doing sth everyday is definitely awesome.

at the moment im just a little pissed that :
1. my cupboard is still.....missing a damn shelf. == aiyah i wanna do it myself
2. not enough shopping
3. should be finishing work....but...procrastinating

at least theres few good things....like...

1. shopping!
2. WICKEDDDD (ive downloaded all the songs =D)
3. i have enough work to do. so all is fine

next to me is a stack of books. six fat books. so far i have to beat my record of reading a book in less than a day. they're so fat though.

human is so weird i swear. the moment everyone hits the holidays, everyone moans about procrastination, boredom and not knowing what to do. but as soon as everyone is about oooh about week 3 everyone is moaning for the holidays.

anyways, better start enjoying the holidays. just a reminder, we're halfway through the holidays. SO enjoy it while you can! but then again its the end of the year...which means....BLUDGE!

Dancing through life.....


kyexx

ehehe.....(guilty face)

my blog died. i know shocking.

BUT GUESS WHAT!!!!!

(your turn to say WHAT)

im back.

YES IM BACK. SO KEEP READING PLEASEEEEE!

ok anyways. basically my excuse is that i was busy (and i cbb. but dont tell anyone that).  but after much consideration i decided to revive the blog. and im back (:

WICKED WAS AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME! (SPAZZING!) omgomgomgomgomgomgogomgogmogomgomg!! OM GEEEEEE! it was soooo awesome. i dont even know which part was my fav. ): it was that awesome. totally recommend it (if youre going to brisbane or adelaide anytime soon) totaaaaaaaaaaaaally! omgomgomg. im so in awee. jemma....and lucy...dayum their voices were so awesome. i dont remember when i screamed and clapped so much. D: its soo awesome. and it only just hit me. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. so worth it.

so much to do. and so less time. aiyah. so many outings (and spreeeeeeeeeeeeees) and so much hwk and organising. THIS YEAR WENT FAST FOR ME, though i didnt enjoy it as much. i cant wait til next year! can any of you?

anyways i think i have a headache from spazzing so much (and from that awfully salty soup....ick ick.)

and i nearly went on a high. =D but i controlled myself. ahahahahaha

ANYWAYS byeeeeeee for now

kyexx

ruby told me (:

i wanted to know which house i was in. ruby gave me the test and i took the quiz....(took 10 mins cuz i was chatting) and i came up with....

Gryffindor-74
Ravenclaw-94
Hufflepuff-90
Slytherin-52

I WANTED GRYFFINDORRRRRRRRR

ah well. im not brave so meh.

just a quick story

she stumbled out of the car and slammed the door after her. her hoodie was stained with tears. whilst walking up the slope to school, she hastily tried to dry her eyes and dry the wet spots on  the cuffs of her hoodie. quickening her pace to dry her eyes, she readjusted her expression to make sure it seemed calm, cold, as it usually was.

she raced into school, turned corners, and finally ran hastily through the green gates. she saw her friend at the lockers. perfect she sighed in her mind.

"do i look ok?" she whispered to her friend, choking on the ok. she could see her friend annoyed that she had interrupted her. the annoyance was replaced with shock, and then worry.

"what happened?"

and then she lost it completely, and then started to sob and choke over her breathes all over again.

oh my gosh!

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! OH MY GOSH I FEEL SO HAPPY!

got first place in drama! OH YEA! HI 5 RUBY!!!!!!

BUMP IT!

our ryde eisteddfod was on at 7, but since gemma had hers at....forgot....earlier than ours, we left the house at.....3 ish? and was there at....4ish?

gemmas section was awesome! all of it! ruby drew on my book and i tried to shush elbert up....to no success. gosh gemma was so good! not fair that she didnt get sth.
the dinner was awesome too! i loooove lemon chicken rice! dont know why. oh yea! and im definitely going shopping at top ryde city! soooo going! lol we were practising everywhere to be in sync with each other. ruby was talking about how funny it was if the other competitors werent there. haha i was like wishing so badly that they wouldnt come. theyre so PRO! and i nearly tripped while ruby was leaning over me. :P

ahahahaha at 6:35 (why did we get there so early again?), we went inside. so damn nervous. and we met ppl in the next section! ahaha.

i was sooo nervous (did i mention that?) . i could hear ruby repeating her lines again and again under her breath. and then the lady asked for competitor number....1. i could hear my heart beating so loudly. i bet i was sweating as well. but!.....they werent here. only one of the pair came.

and then it was our turn. the lady asked for number 2. ruby and i put our hands up, and then were called to the front. i could feel my feet swaying under me. and i nearly forgot where i was to stand. :O i croaked the poets name out (yea ruby. the strepsils beforehand didnt work) but rubys voice was loud enough to cover my voice in the first verse. im so glad that we didnt make ANY mistakes (wooooooo oh yea).

once we finished, we sat down again. my hands were shaking. even after i had performed. my head was spinning from the effort of not making any mistakes. and then.....competitor 3.....but they werent here either. :O i was so tempted to do the awkward turtle. but our adjudicator came up and we were handed our TROPHIES! OMGOGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGOOMG! the audience were laughing. and ruby and i were smiling! hahahahahhahaha.

Ruby! i officially pronounce you as psychic! CONGRATULATIONS!

SPEAKING OF CONGRATULATIONS! congratualtions to any lance corporals! WOOOOO! youre one step away from COPORAL!

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i could hear claps echoing in my mind. i saw a movement to my left and i quickly copied the movement. OH! i nearly forgot to bow! i willed my feet to move forward. not seeing anyone in the crowd. tripping on the carpet and landing neatly in my seat, i heard congratualtions and praises. all we could do was wait for the result.

"is competitor number three here?" the lady spoke.

the silence in the room was uncomfortable for a moment, then the atmosphere of the room suddenly was lighter, amused. i was tempted to put my hands together and wiggle my thumbs.

the next few minutes were blurred. i was so happy, and i could see my partner and her whole family were too. i was so proud to be her partner. all i remember was standing up shakily, hiding behind my partners back and making her stand in front of me, and then receiving my trophy. i wasnt expecting it to be so heavy. usually it would be cheap asian plastic.

and the last thing i remember was walking out with a huge smile, saying my good lucks to my friends, and walking out, with a huge smile on my face.

omg.....

omg. omgomgomgomgomgomgomg. i havent blogged in so long (D:)

aish! sorry. ill start blogging again. hopefully continue it.

ive just read sumiis blog and now im all serious. which means that ill probably write really srs. :)

ive just had a think about self confidence in general. growing up in a very pressurised environment, i never had the chance to think about how important self confidence is. more like thinking about hwk, assignments and grades. but now that i can juggle a few things at once, i actually realise how much ive changed through the years. certainly not all the changes have been good. but nevertheless i like myself now.

i read a lot (and i mean alot) or stories, or short novels, or even just comments, about girls (and guys) dress for others, act for others and so forth. i dont know if its just me or not, but i find this very.....(i cant think of a word) desprate maybe? more like ridiculous. not trying to sound vain, but self confidence usually starts by accepting yourself. instead of others accepting you. i used to make others accept me and now i realise how stupid i was. and seeing (and reading) magazines and gmh posts and 6billionsecret posts makes me sad sometimes. sometimes i just think about how the world today is so damn fake.

i realise now that im not very good at peeling and slicing food. i was peeling and cuting potatoes yesterday, and i stabbed myself, making my hand look as if there is a blister or sth. and i peeled 7 potatoes in 10-13 minutes. hooray! time for self improvement.

elective choices have really got me stressed. WHAT AM I GOING TO PICK???? so many ppl just list them off the top of their heads. but im still stuck :S should i do electives for my enjoyment? or to meet friends? or to hang out with friends? or.....to learn sth new? or for my studies? for my parents? NOOOOOOOO too many choices! (more like not enough elective choices).

and....thats all i can talk about now.

byeee
love kyexx