sorry sorry. i have been busy. busy busy beeeee ;) no pun intended. but its been busy. and i should be studying...but im taking a break.
ive been sooo tired these days. i slept in, looked tired, couldnt stay away, used cucumbers, and drank tea to stay awake. and bcause of my grumpiness, my tiredness and stress, it hasnt made a very good week. so much has been happening that one blink and a totally different scene appears. maybe because every time i blink i want to go to sleep. i have been feelings waves of sadness and happiness. in order to keep up the happiness, i have asked mel for songs. and that song keeps me smiling. thank you mel. glee also makes me smile, but also makes me cry.
on the topic of songs, i have much faith in the new singing group. it seems serious and good. but who knows? im just glad to do sth to keep my mind wandering. :)
fruit tingles! and gobstoppers! and lifesavers! and chuppa chups! and hubba bubba! makes my head light! haha. ning and i went to the shops. and im so glad i bought lollies. =D though its kinda making me go on a slight high. ooh ooh! drama eisteddford! congratualations ruby! and ning you did well. :)
the past...is a weird thing. you think its THE PAST but it comes back...to haunt you. nah jking. but i know joe said that if he could change one thing, what would it be? and he said nothing. i may be wrong...but i want to change sth in life. but if i changed it...would it change everything else? weird. and intersting. and deep.
haha. id better finish history. ppl await my notes.
love kyexx
ps. dont you just hate secrets
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
ehehe....
haha i feel sooo guilty. procrastinating....haha. and i just realised that high school has really taught me a lot...including fabricating info.and i notice im doing sooo much fabricating. just add a few words here and there to get marks. :( not good. must fix habit.
the thing is, ive tried to show you that ive listened. but all my plans backfire on me. ==" lovely. its like making a pie for 3 hrs and when you take it out, youve forgotten youve put a bomb in it and it explodes all over you. ruined. ok that was THE worst example i couldve used. but it makes sense. ~ahem~ anyways. ill try again. but...i listened by doing what you said. and i know. everyone could have left me. but you didnt. and i have thanked everyone before. but showing my thanks is the hardest bit for me. not the actually climbing. right now, if you have an insight of my world, its in tangles and knots, not because of this whole....triangle, but because of...well...friendships. its like spaghetti and though i do not want to eat it, its still messy. im trying to show my thanks by helping this time, but is it for teh better or for the worse?
ach! id better go. and run.
oh crap. ==" run rabbit run rabbit run run run
love kyexx
the thing is, ive tried to show you that ive listened. but all my plans backfire on me. ==" lovely. its like making a pie for 3 hrs and when you take it out, youve forgotten youve put a bomb in it and it explodes all over you. ruined. ok that was THE worst example i couldve used. but it makes sense. ~ahem~ anyways. ill try again. but...i listened by doing what you said. and i know. everyone could have left me. but you didnt. and i have thanked everyone before. but showing my thanks is the hardest bit for me. not the actually climbing. right now, if you have an insight of my world, its in tangles and knots, not because of this whole....triangle, but because of...well...friendships. its like spaghetti and though i do not want to eat it, its still messy. im trying to show my thanks by helping this time, but is it for teh better or for the worse?
ach! id better go. and run.
oh crap. ==" run rabbit run rabbit run run run
love kyexx
Saturday, May 22, 2010
down
down down down down down.
now ive got that stuck in my head.
haha i failed my er quote. wow. i honestly think that i need to keep promises more thoroughly. but in truth, assignments, tests, headaches, lack of sleep, fights, shouting mixed with drama just isnt the best combo.
so im so sorry that ive failed. and i will try to keep happy. being sad just isnt sth i like. but its hard after i have failed for 3 years. so will you forgive me this time?
oh i have been so damn busy, its not funny. its kinda hard to cope with pressure.
oh just a few anon messages (though most wont read or understand)
i know you guys haha or girls really hate my guts. or are just trying to get me to listen. did you really think that i wouldnt listen? i beg to differ. i know the first time i didnt. and it was oh so big a mistake. but honestly, i am not doing the same thing again. i am more concerned for you guys (and even more concerned now!). i dont know what to do. i think it might be another test. but i dont know. im using a new page now. and though i dont get the poem, i do get what youre trying to say. or unless...theres sth else?
im trying to help you. but sometimes, its so awkward. and the person we talk about, well...lets just say that its hard. you know it too. i will advise, i will be a doctor. but in the end its up to you. and only you. you know, i also had a time that i didnt know what to do? you knwo it too. i was stuck. but i listened to so much advice. the best one for me came from my friends. and yes friends. but the right one for you, can only be chosen by you.
and....i know im bad at drama. but i will win! i hope...
anyways. id better get back to study
smiling after a stressing friday afternoon
love kyexx
now ive got that stuck in my head.
haha i failed my er quote. wow. i honestly think that i need to keep promises more thoroughly. but in truth, assignments, tests, headaches, lack of sleep, fights, shouting mixed with drama just isnt the best combo.
so im so sorry that ive failed. and i will try to keep happy. being sad just isnt sth i like. but its hard after i have failed for 3 years. so will you forgive me this time?
oh i have been so damn busy, its not funny. its kinda hard to cope with pressure.
oh just a few anon messages (though most wont read or understand)
i know you guys haha or girls really hate my guts. or are just trying to get me to listen. did you really think that i wouldnt listen? i beg to differ. i know the first time i didnt. and it was oh so big a mistake. but honestly, i am not doing the same thing again. i am more concerned for you guys (and even more concerned now!). i dont know what to do. i think it might be another test. but i dont know. im using a new page now. and though i dont get the poem, i do get what youre trying to say. or unless...theres sth else?
im trying to help you. but sometimes, its so awkward. and the person we talk about, well...lets just say that its hard. you know it too. i will advise, i will be a doctor. but in the end its up to you. and only you. you know, i also had a time that i didnt know what to do? you knwo it too. i was stuck. but i listened to so much advice. the best one for me came from my friends. and yes friends. but the right one for you, can only be chosen by you.
and....i know im bad at drama. but i will win! i hope...
anyways. id better get back to study
smiling after a stressing friday afternoon
love kyexx
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
changes
as sumii said, everyones blog died, including mine. shocking. ive just been so busy. so many tests and assignments. i found some breathing time, and so im using it on my blogging.
ive changed my profile pic. lana skye! i know i dont play ace attorney, but still. lana.
ive also changed my layout, credits to ruby =D. thank you. i like it, even though its purple. hmm...i might play around with it.
as many people have said, i have been very depressing in my blogs. sorry i broke my promise. so im reviving it. into a happy mode. haha i brought a box...and yes a box of mentos today. =D im glad to see diana go on a high. though the world isnt always happy, trying to make it happy is a mission some have to take. haha. i ate too many mentos' and too much lindt chocolate that it gave me a headache, so im trying to go for healthy alternatives. try as i may, i fail many times. haha. i always seem to be craving for chocolate. i dont know what my body wants from the chocolate thats so important.
i read sth...you know quotes..
as we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. you will have your heart broken probably more than once and its harder every time. youll break hearts too. so remember how it felt when yours was broken. youll fight with your best friend. youll blame a new love for things an old one did. youll cry because time is passing so fast,and youll everntually lose someone you love. so take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like youve never been hurt before. because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness youll never get back.
ok yes. you mightve seen this before. but it expresses so much. in just...er...a few (maybe not) sentences. im dedicating this to my friends (especially some) and myself. and i am not trying to say sth, or suggesting.
i like this quote. but i dont know whether to believe it. i hope i can though. its so real for me. haha. (now im rambling).
im deciding to try and notice i say try to be happy, to take LOTS OF photos, to laugh A LOT and to LOVE LIKE IVE NEVER BEEN HURT! and i say try, because i break so many promises...(im so sorry)
anyways. big day tomorrow. carnival and skating.
so ciao!
gl in exams and assignments!
love kyexx
ive changed my profile pic. lana skye! i know i dont play ace attorney, but still. lana.
ive also changed my layout, credits to ruby =D. thank you. i like it, even though its purple. hmm...i might play around with it.
as many people have said, i have been very depressing in my blogs. sorry i broke my promise. so im reviving it. into a happy mode. haha i brought a box...and yes a box of mentos today. =D im glad to see diana go on a high. though the world isnt always happy, trying to make it happy is a mission some have to take. haha. i ate too many mentos' and too much lindt chocolate that it gave me a headache, so im trying to go for healthy alternatives. try as i may, i fail many times. haha. i always seem to be craving for chocolate. i dont know what my body wants from the chocolate thats so important.
i read sth...you know quotes..
as we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. you will have your heart broken probably more than once and its harder every time. youll break hearts too. so remember how it felt when yours was broken. youll fight with your best friend. youll blame a new love for things an old one did. youll cry because time is passing so fast,and youll everntually lose someone you love. so take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like youve never been hurt before. because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness youll never get back.
ok yes. you mightve seen this before. but it expresses so much. in just...er...a few (maybe not) sentences. im dedicating this to my friends (especially some) and myself. and i am not trying to say sth, or suggesting.
i like this quote. but i dont know whether to believe it. i hope i can though. its so real for me. haha. (now im rambling).
im deciding to try and notice i say try to be happy, to take LOTS OF photos, to laugh A LOT and to LOVE LIKE IVE NEVER BEEN HURT! and i say try, because i break so many promises...(im so sorry)
anyways. big day tomorrow. carnival and skating.
so ciao!
gl in exams and assignments!
love kyexx
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
thoughts
ive been thinking alot. and ive come up with this idea...
and yes its getting weirder. im sorry. but...
her arms ached from the pushups she did the other day. her arms seemed to be pulled by thin strings. she felt useless, tired. she closed her eyes and thought about everything. too much. she wanted to stand up. dance around and push her energy into it. she wanted to spread out everything and sort it into neat files like her school work. she couldnt. and it pained and ached, like a fire that couldnt be put out. too much had been happening. she couldnt believe it. she had everything set out, like a map, and then it was drawn on, scrunched up, ruined, by her own hands. she wanted to sleep and never wake up again.
she glanced at the 2 convos, switching from one to another. she had deliberated asking, but she needed to know, needed to find out. the other issue wasnt as important. and anyways, it was forbidden. she couldnt tell the person yet. kept inside, hidden from view. she stayed immobile. her mind flew ahead. a plan. excellent.
and yes its getting weirder. im sorry. but...
her arms ached from the pushups she did the other day. her arms seemed to be pulled by thin strings. she felt useless, tired. she closed her eyes and thought about everything. too much. she wanted to stand up. dance around and push her energy into it. she wanted to spread out everything and sort it into neat files like her school work. she couldnt. and it pained and ached, like a fire that couldnt be put out. too much had been happening. she couldnt believe it. she had everything set out, like a map, and then it was drawn on, scrunched up, ruined, by her own hands. she wanted to sleep and never wake up again.
she glanced at the 2 convos, switching from one to another. she had deliberated asking, but she needed to know, needed to find out. the other issue wasnt as important. and anyways, it was forbidden. she couldnt tell the person yet. kept inside, hidden from view. she stayed immobile. her mind flew ahead. a plan. excellent.
Monday, May 10, 2010
rant
small rant
i misunderstood you so much. i let myself become blind. ive treated you so cruelly. and im so sorry. i shouldnt have done what i did. we have apologised, we agree and are on the same track, but im still extremely sorry. yes i think of you as somewhat of a friend. and no i dont say it coldly. i know you wont read this but i have to let it out. tysm for the time.
ok.
kyexx
i misunderstood you so much. i let myself become blind. ive treated you so cruelly. and im so sorry. i shouldnt have done what i did. we have apologised, we agree and are on the same track, but im still extremely sorry. yes i think of you as somewhat of a friend. and no i dont say it coldly. i know you wont read this but i have to let it out. tysm for the time.
ok.
kyexx
tvb dramas
omg! so obssessed with tvb dramas! i feel so emotional afterwards! man....i love them. i wish they could make more seasons and episodes. =D
kyexx
kyexx
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