...

...did i say sth wrong?

anyone can give up, its the easiest thing in the world to do. but to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, thats true strength

thing i cant stop thinking about:
-the past
-the future
-you

love is a cycle:
when you love, you get hurt.
when you get hurt, you hate.
when you hate, you try to forget.
when you try to forget, you start missing.
and when you start missing...
you'll eventually fall in love again.

but you will never get to see these tears i cry...


sorry for the emo blog

kyexx

thanks to sumii and diana.

thank you sumii and diana for pointing that out. i decided to flip it, because someone i know is confused as to why im still so cold towards him/her. so....its slightly different

Kyexx

13th day

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you (changed to someone you wish you could forgive)


um....OOH I GOT ONE


hey you, 


i wish i could forgive you. you are quite nice now, still that gossipy, and...i guess youve grown up so much. youre still cute little....omg i nearly said your name. but really i cant forgive you for what you did. you really hurt me. a source said that you were trying to be my friend, i saw you as my enemy. and im sorry for thinking that. but you really hurt me. maybe not the worst pain ive had. but it hurt. im still not ready to forget about it. maybe a few years time.


Kyexx

12th Day

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain


um.....really? i guess i have...one


hey you,


yea yea im talking about you again. but really do i have to say all this again? im PRETTY SURE i wrote everything in one of the letters....lets just say....it doesnt matter anymore. even though i was on the edge of a pit of depression, im back to normal now. maybe a year ago i would get mixed feelings, and that caused me a lot of pain. trust me, you dont know how much pain i was in. but as i said. IT DOESNT MATTER. so there was no point in writing this.


Kyexx

11th day

Day 11 - A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Well ok. This one is rather hard, and not cuz I cant think of one. I swear I will cry when I write this.

Dear deceased grandparents,

I….never knew you. And I will never see you, hear you, know you. I know that my friends and family tell me to not worry about it, but I guess I cant not worry. You were supposed to be the people who gave me red bags, who I could talk to when I had an assignment about you, who could make me smile. I guess I never had that, and that’s what made me who I am today. Its not your fault. Course not. But I just wish that I knew you, so I could respectfully mourn. When my dad and aunt were crying remembering their good times, I was standing there, not knowing whether to look stoned, or to cry with them. My mother completely shuts this part of her life about you guys. I understand why, but I will never know about this important part of my life, and I guess that will be a mystery forever. So I love you unconditionally, even if I have no idea who you are. I know youre in a better place. I pray that you will look over me while I continue the journey of my life.

Kyexx

Keep reading!

PS. I did tear up.

10th day

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

...i...dont....really...have one....

BUT i can do one of course

hey you guys,

yea. i was kind of....weird last year...and i guess ive lost connections because of some decisions. i guess maybe im close to some of you, and for some i have no idea bout you. im trying to change that as fast as possible....possibly next year. maybe i will have more time to hang out with you guys. im sorry, i was slack. at least you guys dont hate me. i dont deserve that. 

Kyexx

apologies

sorry. im capped, so i decided to do groups of letters at a time. to make it less confusing, im going to separate all the letters. that way you can actually find them. side note: sumii blog has changed, and it would be nice for her to have more followers. http://causeyouremine.blogspot.com/ i doubt she needs this though.

ok so starting from the 10th day...